What Struck Me this Pentecost

I am religiously attending a charismatic group every Monday in Pathways Ortigas at Poveda. This is held by Ligaya ng Panginoon a religious charismatic group. I was invited by our head of operations Ms. Aly Capote last year together with my colleagues. So far, we have finished the whole Choices seminar and now we are officially member of Pathways Ortigas.

At the end of the Choices seminar we have this “blessing of the Holy Spirit". I was expecting to be struck just like the others. Some are in complete meditation and crying. I am one of those that were smiling after being prayed over. Maybe I was over expecting of how it will affect me.

So come this Monday the feast of Pentecost which I have no idea at all. Brother Bobby Quitain one of my favorite speakers from Ligaya talked about the Pentecost. My favorite part of the talk is when he explained the following, “God in Us", “God before us", and “God with Us".

We started praying. Brother Bobbi initiated the worship portion. At my surprise each word struck me like tiny bullets penetrating my heart

The highlight of it was the healing. The healing may refer to physical, spiritual or emotional healing. Our proxy-group leader approached to have me prayed over. To my surprise, at the very moment she asked me what I want her to pray for, tears began swelling In my eyes like Niagara falls. I was overwhelmed at that time. So she asked me, what I wanted to pray for. My answer should have been, “I wanted to pray for the big account that I am working for. It’s very timely since I just received a bad news from them". But different set of words came out from my mouth which struck me… I replied, I’ve been asking the Lord, what He wants me to do… and what I really want to do… Now, I realize all I wanted to do was to serve our Lord." I keep on saying that, I was so speechless and I can’t help myself from crying.

After which, I started praying for other people. I prayed for Ms. Agnes my office mate who has been undergoing some problems with her family. I started praying for Marko for his career. My heart keep on exclaiming words of praise.

The whole night during my sleep, I keep on thanking the Lord. As I woke up, I still felt the same ecstasy during our prayer meeting. The Holy Spirit is truly working in me. It’s amazing how the Holy Spirit works on our hearts and how it hits us on the right spot. I wish I can share the same feeling to other people. That was first time I ever felt contentment in my life. The anxieties that I felt that time was flushed in an instance.

finally, I get to answer my question, what Pentecost is. Pentecost is the descent of the Holy Spirit which I personally experienced. I’m glad that I have the Holy Spirit within me. I feel more secured and confident as I lay my trust in Him.

I'm so blessed for having the 'BEST' boyfriend in the world

I remember I was having an argument with a friend who is much sweeter girls or boys? Now, I know the answer. Often times boyfriends are much sweeter than girlfriends.

The proof is this….

I always have my ‘happily ever after’ at my side. Yes, I am so lucky and blessed to have him. Despite me being ‘monster girlfriend’ at times and for having such a short temper, he would just smile at me and kiss my forehead while saying “kaya kita love eh…" Syempre ako guilty naman.

He also has this talent of making simple things sweet. Yes, he is indeed romantic. Sabi nga nila he’s a gem :) 

We have flaws in our relationship though. We were not so hopelessly in love to each other unlike before, but now to a different level.

To my ‘ever loving supportive boyfriend’ (as I always quote. i hope you’ll be able to read this):

I love you so much. You are the reason for my sanity. Thanks for being always there for me and for letting me be there for you. I love you! I love you! I love you! I am always your own <3

Drama: Work Work Work!

These past few months has been pretty stressful for me. The feeling that everything is spinning so hard you want to take a grip and puke. I was thinking if I’m the only one putting pressure to myself. I feel so sick and tired of that idea. I hate the feeling of being so exhausted with work (sino nga ba ang hindi?). Though I keep on reminding myself that “there’s no perfect job” so… much as well enjoy what you’re doing but the problem is… I’m not enjoying it anymore.

Don’t get me wrong. I enjoy our work environment, specially now that I’m starting to have a set of girl friends; the clients that are often pain in my ass is precious for me; the company that is giving me a lenient time and giving us big bucks of commission; Our operations head that I rather consider as my mentor.

So what am I ranting about? I’m not ranting about the company I am working with. I am ranting about myself because I’m at this point of realization were in I don’t find myself in this industry anymore. As much as I wanted to force myself to embrace it, I would still fall at the same pit of quitting. And now, where do I really want to be? Honestly, I still don’t know. I’m not sure also if taking an MBA would somehow help me figure things out. This reminds me of a conversation with a president of an IT company. He asked me if I’m really sure to invest on MBA, because I would learn better on actual that I should think of it twice before I decide (btw, he was pirating me at that time).

Taking an MBA would also mean of the risk of quitting my job, however I don’t see myself not earning a penny. Again and again, I keep on asking myself “Ella Ella ano ba talaga ang gusto mo???”

Here’s a power kiss for you @oleoleol. Good luck tomorrow! I know you can do it! Just be yourself and everything will turn out well. Break a leg ;) love lots from your dearest Ella (p.s ‘huwag masyado kabahan’) (Taken with instagram)

I should try this as Birthday Cake

The greatest mistake we make is living in constant fear that we will make one

John Maxwell

Music Doll

I got this music doll in watson’s for my 18th birthday which I eventually gave to my boyfriend to remind him of me. He often finds this music doll creepy and my dog also finds her creepy too, specially when it starts making sounds.

I got inspired to learn the basics of DSLR when I watched video tutorials from FroKnowsPhoto.com. Looking for an interesting subject, I chose my music doll as my model. I shoot different angles of her.

Well, I was bit pretty impress with my work :)

Here’s Marko busy watching anime series on my iPad. He usually does that during his free time.

I used to like anime series way back in my high school days but now I have loose my likes on it. I remember those days when I fantasize for Tamahome (fushigi yuugi) as my boyfriend.

I just love when he does that. He looks so lazy!!!!!!!! So perfect :D